I found these prayers scribbled in my Beth Moore Breaking Free (The Journey, The Stories) workbook. The date is February 28, 2011, one year ago.
Feb. 28, 2011...
This is the year, Lord. Set me free. You are up to something GOOD! You are HERE, NOW, in this season of my life.
Oh, Lord--free me from FEAR...[Cry out to Him for His help, Candi...]
Beth had us read Judges 6:17-23, but I backed up to verse 12:
12 When the
angel of the LORD appeared to Gideon, he said, "The LORD is with you, mighty
13 "But sir," Gideon
replied, "if the LORD is with us, why has all this happened to us? Where are all His wonders that our fathers told us about when they said, 'Did not the LORD
bring us up out of Egypt?' But now the LORD has abandoned us and put us into the
hand of Midian."
14 The LORD turned to Him and said, "Go in the strength you have and save Israel out of Midian's hand.
Am I not sending you?"
15 "But Lord," Gideon asked,
"how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least
in my family."
16 The LORD answered, "I
will be with you, and you will strike down all the Midianites together."
replied, "If now I have found favor in Your eyes, give me a sign that it is
really You talking to me. 18 Please do not go away
until I come back and bring my offering and set it before You."
And the LORD
said, "I will wait until you return."
19 Gideon went in,
prepared a young goat, and from an ephah of flour he made bread without yeast. Putting
the meat in a basket and its broth in a pot, he brought them out and offered
them to Him under the oak.
20 The angel of God said
to him, "Take the meat and the unleavened bread, place them on this rock, and
pour out the broth." And Gideon did so. 21 With the tip of the
staff that was in his hand, the angel of the LORD touched the meat and the
unleavened bread. Fire flared from the rock, consuming the meat and the bread.
And the angel of the LORD disappeared. 22 When Gideon realized
that it was the angel of the LORD , he exclaimed, "Ah, Sovereign LORD ! I have
seen the angel of the LORD face to face!"
23 But the LORD said to
him, "Peace! Do not be afraid. You are not going to die."
I tremble a bit at my response:
Oh, Lord, on the altar, I lay my writing--my blog, my True Worship Bible studies, the Mommy Power book with Betsy, ChosenFamilies.org, work with Nace. I believe You have called me to be a profoundly effective, influential, fruit-bearing writer. But it will be nothing--none of it will matter--without Your acceptance, blessing, & anointing. Please, Lord, set my writing AFIRE...
And there it is. A naive prayer probably, but a heartfelt one, one I think God is prepared to answer...