Friday, July 8, 2011
You’d think I’m growing up or something.
I said “no” to working from home.
It was this great opportunity as a writing coach for an online homeschool curriculum. I could do it. And I’d be good at it. I might even enjoy it. In spurts. We could use the money. But we’re doing okay without it.
Here’s the thing: God’s already given me responsibilities. He’s been very clear about them. My focus: being Michael’s wife, being Cami’s mommy, being a friend to my neighbors, being an authentic blogger. In all that, letting God heal some big things in my heart. With my marriage and playdates and homeschool and neighborhood—my life is full to the brim.
Add one more thing, and I think I’ll freak.
So—I’m not adding it.
I’m getting my house in order. I’m keeping my focus. I won’t overcommit. I’m learning to take care of myself. I’m learning to concentrate on just the things He’s given me to do, not all the things that need to be done.
There is so much need in our world, and life is huge sometimes. But not everything is my responsibility—only what He gives me to accomplish. If I try to take on more than He gives me to do, then I lose my focus, and basically, I’m not trusting Him.
Sometimes I’m overwhelmed because I’ve taken on responsibilities that He hasn’t given me. Like someone else’s pain. Or a need He hasn’t purposed for me to fill. Or earning extra money at a job that will take time and energy away from my husband and child.
It’s all in the balance.
So here I go. . .
Watch me walk, putting one foot in front of the other.
Watch me breathe from the bottom of my lungs.